be lucky that some of you have someone to talk to. someone who is there for you mentally and physically. anytime you need a hug when you feel hopeless , you need a kiss on the forehead telling you everything will be alright, when you need someone to make you smile for no reason. someone who knows everything about you. someone who listens and make you feel better even though you know its not. someone who wont leave you alone and cry hopelessly. someone who will bring you out from this world for just a little while.
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some of you may wonder, why is harmony always so moody, so sad , so angry at everything and anything. cos you guys have no idea at all whats happening. i too dont wish to be in this devastating stage. at the edge of everything. but you wont understand. in your mindset, im still the desperate , good for nothing , as if i've lost someone and the whole world ends kinda girl. you may think what you want. i cant stop you.
you know the feeling when you try to do your best, and you still get stepped on their feet. the feeling when you cant do it properly because of all sorts of reasons, and everyone come stepping on you, saying that you are a useless, good for nothing kinda girl. have you ever felt this way?!
people gossiping behind you, saying, harmony has changed, she doesnt do her assignments, she only try to attract guys, she only go clubs, what you all want me to do?!!! seriously! talking behind my back is one thing, letting me know what you all have said... seriously?
i wasnt like this, i dont want to be like this. i hate myself for being in this state today. you think i want?
harmony, sometimes, people can say what ever they want. is it true, is it not. up to them, if they feel happy talking about you, let them be, not like they can live another few years longer.
harmony, just do what you have got to do. fall down, cry, get up, walk again.
assignments, relationship, family, kills the person inside.
hopeless.
random fact: im happy, its a lie.
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